Ruby's Bio: Hi guys I'm new to PDXBlackbook, but not new to dancing.. I'm originally from Wa, I'm twenty five and I've been dancing for six years... I've danced in Tacoma Wa, Reno Nv, & Missoula Montana; currently I'm dancing in Tualatin Oregon. I'm not in school right now; and I'm dancing because I enjoy traveling, the freedom and most of all I love dancing because it's going to pay for my retirement investments :) I’m woman who’s on a quest to find my true self, who am I down to the core? For now, I really don’t know, deep down my personality changes dramatically and tends to change with my moods.. When I’m HAPPY & LOVED, I’m very spiritual and have a great desire to heal everyone around me. When I’m ANGRY, I see myself being ragingly violent towards those who steps on my toes.. But a lot of times I’m just nuetral and polite, the politeness isn’t really me, it’s a behavior habbit I have, cause for the longest time I was raised, forced and programmed to be that way and it’s difficult for me to stop.... Fortunetly and slowly I’m progressing, I’m beginning to speak my mind and to properly have my tone of voice match my exact feelings and mood.. Besides my quest to find myself, I remembered my forgotten AMBITIONS.. MY GREATEST AMBITION IS: To break weight training records and maintain a barbie doll figure.. My passion is to prove that women can be as strong as men physically and still maintain their femininity and beauty..The only way to prove that is by showing everyone a living example ME.. MY 2ND AMBITION is to empower and create well being for all women in the U.S. I’m planning to pass a law that requires women to take certain classes to graduate highschool and college.. The classes I’ll require will make women strong emotionally, pyschologically and physically; so women will be prepared to take on life’s challenges and they’ll be able to survive in the real world with or without men.. Besides my true ambitions, I’m also on a quest to find something that I once had, that I lost, THAT IS TO FIND TRUE HAPPINESS (THE ENERGY OF LOVE) I’m not talking about Romantic Love, I’M TALKING ABOUT A LOVE THAT’S WITHIN YOURSELF, A STRONG ENERGETIC FORCE THAT IS PURE, JOYFUL, SPIRITUAL, IT’S A CONNECTION YOU FEEL DOWN TO THE ROOT AND CORE OF YOUR SOUL AND TO GOD.. I experienced it once and had it for 3 months straight, while I had this love, I radiated with such a strong but gentle force; that I positively touched the lives of everyone I came across. But somehow, I lost it.. I’m determined to get it back and keep it in me forever.. But anyway..After I realized and remembered the things I forgot that I wanted, I’m relieved that I don’t feel dead, hollow and lost inside.. It’s so crazy how sometimes we get soo caught up with everyday responsibilities that we lose ourselves along the way and forget who we are forget what it is that we truly want most in life, what we live for & what gives us fire inside... With all these factors, we tend to slowly lose interest in life & living, and what’s scary is we don’t even realize it because we’re soo busy working, and worrying about the future.. So when life gets to hectic, and get you get lost & confused about what you really want in life, take a minute to relax and do some soul searching.. Ask yourself what is it you truly want out of life? Or ask yourself this.. "If you could tell, teach and show the world something what would it be?" You might suprise yourself, cause once you find the answers to your questions MAYBE just maybe you’ll find what you’re truly looking for and just maybe you’ll re-light that fire and take action! Well that's pretty much the basics about me... ~ Ruby |
