Before i became a dancer i was a student at Olympic College.. I attended community college the fall after i graduated.. I graduated year 2000.. While i was in school, i was sheltered, naive, miserable, judgemental and i was a hardcore feminist that was against strippers, strip clubs, porn and nude magazines..
Anyway.. a year after attending community college i got fed up living with my mom and living my life by her standards.. so i went on a mission to look for a job so i can move out and start living life my way..
I went for soo many months job hunting.. no-one was hiring and other places wouldn't hire me because i didn't have any job experience...
One day my Christian bible lecturing friend Gina joked and told me a place called Toys Topless is hiring.. I quickly asked her.. "What's Toys Topless? where is it?" She told me they are hiring hostesses and she strongly advised me not to work there because it's a strip club...
Even after her strong objection, i was intrigued, so i asked around about where i can find Toys Topless.. I ended up finding it.. So one night i went in to get an application, instead of getting an application i got an iterview with the owner Lenny, he hired me right on the spot, i filled out paper work, he got a copy of my driver's license.. Before i left we planned my work schedule.. I made my schedule to where i would go to work as soon as my mom leaves for work and that i would get off work before my mom arrives home.. (So this way my mom wouldn't suspect i got a job)..
After i left Toys Topless i tried to convince myself that i was doing nothing wrong.. that i'm just hostessing and i shouldn't feel guilty about working there because i'm not dancing.. and i silently promised myself that i will never become an exotic dancer..
I don't remember my first night working as a hostess, all i remember that i was extremely nervous.. i was nervous about entertaining men with conversation, wearing sexy clothes, seeing naked women, and i was nervous that the dancers could see right through me ( that i was a strip club and exotic dancer HATER) i was afraid of how they would react towards me.. will they give me a hard time? or will they beat me up and drive me out? I really didn't know.. To my suprise the dancers knew i was uncomfortable.. so they were pleasant and very welcoming..
While i worked there, i got to know the dancers, i found out that a lot of them are students, single mothers and most of all that they are regular people!
Sometime after working there, i came up with money to save, and i found out that my ex-boyfriend's friends needed a roomate and rent would only cost $300.. So as soon as i came up with the money & while my mom was at work, i left her a note telling her that i have a job, a place to stay and i assured her that i'll be allright.. But i didn't leave a number, address or told my mom where i worked.. & then i moved out and moved into my first place, a house that was rented by Jay, jason and me..
I don't remember exactly when i started dancing.. shortly after i moved out and worked as a hostess Lenny and the girls pursuaded me to dance... Deep down i wanted to dance just to see what it was like besides witnssing it everyday.. For the longest time i hesitated because of fear..
I feared being boo-ed off the stage or having some guy yell "you suck", i feared getting on stage because of physical insecurities and most of all i feared about my parents finding out and what they would do to me if they found out..
Somehow i pushed the fear aside, i got my license and one night i got on the stage.. and i never got off the stage ever since...
Looking back at everything.. I'm so grateful i became a dancer, if it wasn't for dancing i never would of been able to move out of my mom's house, i never would of got past my ignorance, and i wouldn't have one of my greatest abilities and traits.. and that is my independence..
I'm independent financially, pyschologically, and emotionally.. To be honest, i love dancing.. Dancing gives me freedom to work wherever and whenever i want.. I've traveled to a few places, I've traveled to Missoula Montana, Reno, Nevada, Portland Oregon.. From here there are plenty of other places i want to go and those places are, California, Alaska, Hawaii, Arizona, Texas, Florida and New York...
As weird as this sounds, i belive dancing is my calling.. One no-one would hire me, two, i don't think it's coincidence that my bible lecturing friend lead me to Toys Topless and to how easy it was to conceal my schedule from my overbearng and controlling mother.. ( I love my mom very much) there isn't much that can get past her..
From here on out.. i still learn a lot of things, i meet a lot of people and everyday i still grow and evolve into the person i am today and i'll continue to grow & learn from here on out.. both as a person and a dancer :)
Cricket is working sunday at DP not me. I know a lot of you have been wanting to see me and I'm sorry all I can say is I don't make the schedule and there's nothing I can do to change the fact that I
I cant wait to get to work tonight so much sexual energy! I'm hoping there will be a hot older man to keep me going all night! I'll be at Magic Garden I love that its small and mellow and I dont get
To want me TONIGHT!! I'm in a naughty mood & I'm sure you are also. So come into Lucky Devil Lounge tonight and let's have some major fun. Whatya think?
Be there from 9:00- 2:30.
XOXO
Sophia
